When I am open to receive, HE speaks.

Getting to the point of openness is the challenge.

Once again, I have gotten hung up in the doing, in the obsession with time and in the need to control the outcome.  And, once again, the battle is within myself.  And here I sit, again.

When I am open, nurture the internal and become intentional with my energy, HE speaks.

This fall has felt like a prep course.  I’m not sure what I’m prepping for but I know that this is designated time to prep.  To have conversations, to listen, to research, to pray, to believe.

 How? Why? When? What? Where?

Revelation …is a terrible thing…because once you see, you cannot unseen. I have seen enough that I know I am not open.  I know I have been focused on the task list and the time crunch.  And I have gotten on the hamster wheel again.  It’s time to jump off.  To be present, to be open, to explore and to listen.

To be thankful for this season.  To be thankful that Chase is home and we are re-connecting as adults.  To have the existential conversations.  To be challenged on my beliefs and my actions. To be in community.  To recognize my limitations, my anxieties, my expectations and my human-ness and to recognize God’s hand in these moments.  Precious time with Chase home.  Precious time with Mitch and Liz home.