This is a hard day for me.   Not so much for others I suppose.  But it’s a much needed day.

One that I wouldn’t have taken except I am supposed to be in a class (which I am skipping) and so I have distributed the children.  I didn’t plan on skipping.  I have been excited about the class.  But I am tired and scattered and need some alone time.  And all the kids are other places and I can be at home by myself in silence.  I need this more than I need the class right now.  A Disney Cruise followed by caring for a friends going through cancer.  And children.

This is a hard day for me.  Not so much for others I suppose.  But it’s a much needed day.

I feel guilty for skipping and not telling the people that are caring for my children.  I feel guilty for not sharing with my family and friends that are so excited for me to try something new.

This is a hard day for me.  Not so much for others I suppose.  But it’s a much needed day.

The things i want to do today won’t save a life or change the world but it will change me.  It will change the way I think, respond, interact and love.  I will finish laundry, organize here and there, read, create, write and sleep. I will prep for the kids to return.  I will get an evening with my husband AND be present.

It’s a much needed day.